The mood swings have not started, and yet everybody thinks that my personality has changed. Are they just looking for ways to excuse themselves from actually dealing with the fact that this pregnancy is about me and not about them? Or do they truly believe that the temperamental Jackie still exists within me? They say they’re happy for me, but I know that deep down inside they think I’m making a big mistake. At the back of their minds, they’re thinking I’m crazy because of the way I’m dealing with the situation – but when everything hits rock bottom, there’s nothing you can do but go up, right? They might as well all be sincerely happy for me, for I have already accepted the fact that life doesn’t usually go our way. Read more »

I’ve been getting a lot of emails from moms who’d like to try out working from homes. And I just wanted to answer the following questions that have been asked, and then some, so as not to repeat myself. If you have questions, please send me an email or just post them here.
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My mom thinks I’m crazy and she probably wants to bash my head on the wall. She read my blog (I didn’t even know she goes to my blog) and sent me an email. That wasn’t how it was supposed to happen. I wanted to talk to her and let her know personally. But it’s all out in the open now, so there’s really nothing I can do except maybe pray that I win the lottery within the next couple of months. Read more »

Yup, you read it right – I’m pregnant! The little man seems to be really excited and wants to start buying stuff for his baby sister or brother. He even went with me to the doctor today. The baby daddy is of course around, but may not be for long (he’s not dying, I just prefer to stay in touch with the realities of life). Too complicated an issue to discuss, too personal to tell the whole world; but I used the same sperm donor.

It wasn’t a planned pregnancy, so I’m as shocked as my friends. I’m just happy that they’re happy that I got my wish. As far as plans go, I’ve yet to make a list. I mean for the past how many years I’ve been building up and saving for stuff that I want and need. Drastic change of plans I guess, and I’m still trying to digest everything. I was planning on purchasing a lot in Antipolo, but that’s taking the back seat for now. New baby, new responsibilities, more expenses!

My son talks about death more often that I’d like him, too. In the past, he was scared of dying because it meant that he wouldn’t be able to do anything. Now, he tells me that he’s scared of dying because he might go to hell (as most bad boys do according to his teacher). I’ve no qualms about my son learning about organized religion and all that spiritual stuff because I’m Christian. I was born into a Catholic family, educated in a Catholic school and grew up fearing God and hell.
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